Life in Heaven
It’s hard to put into words the intermingled feeling of
happiness, freedom, comfort, peace and appreciation. I guess that is because
there isn’t a word for feeling all those things and more at once, particularly at
such a great level, for such a sustained amount of time. If I had to assign it
a word, the word would be Heaven. I feel Heaven around me, always. How could I
not, having eyes and ears and all. Heaven rustles the trees above me, bringing
a coolness to the warm summer air. It twits through the branches, alighting
soundlessly, but only for a moment. Heaven soars through the skies in slow
motion, a tinge of purple against the pinks of the evening sky, shifting shape
as it reflects the last of the day’s sunlight. Heaven rolls thick through the
valley, translucent among the fields that fade into obscurity well before the
tree line. It shines brightly in the eyes of fellow Heaven dwellers. Living in
Heaven is a good way to be. This is the land in which my heart birthed its
first notion of incomprehensible beauty. Beauty far beyond a pleasant sight.
Beauty as an understanding, a feeling, a way of life. Endless and unknowable,
even if studied for a lifetime. Dissatisfaction, sadness, loneliness and
hopelessness are difficult to render in a place that is built of everything
which cures such woes. I’ve hardly felt a twinge of their sting since I came to
live in Heaven, quite possibly the best decision I’ve ever made. I cannot
imagine life outside of Heaven at this point but I cannot rightfully scoff at those
who live elsewhere. Many who live elsewhere dream of being in Heaven often, yet
still cannot bring themselves to call it home. Everyone can plainly see the
beauty of Heaven but from the outside it appears to come at a price. They feel
that there is a lot to be sacrificed to live in Heaven. It is out of the way,
far off the beaten path. It is a simple life. A slow life. A modest life. Some
times in Heaven we lack the conveniences of life elsewhere, which society has
long since convinced itself are necessities. Many people seem not able to
detach from the fool’s gold of life elsewhere. In Heaven, the cars are old, some rusting. The
clothes are ragged, work torn. The homes are small, needing maintenance. The sun is what shines here. The morning dew is what shimmers in the light. But because of that, life lived here is full and happy. For some reason, it is customary in our
culture to live in Heaven only at the end of your life. Some do this as a
reward for a life lived as one was told it is meant to be. For others, it is the
first chance to finally escape the bindings of life, which seem to wither away
as old age encroaches. Whatever the reason for delaying a life lived in utter
beauty, I won’t settle for it. Still, I can’t scoff at those who live elsewhere
because I suppose that if everyone lived in Heaven when they were as young as
I, then Heaven would not be the word I would use for my home. I feel lucky to
have found Heaven so early. I acknowledge its splendor and am endlessly
grateful and indebted for being allowed a role in the inner workings of Heaven.
I just wonder, why do we not all seek out and live in Heaven, making our life
here on earth as rich and exquisite as I have found it to be? Why wait for Heaven?
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